So I've been going to bed really early lately. Since xmas. I've just been falling asleep w/ Mad. A) it's cozy in her bed that used to be Snick's that used to be mine & is THE comfiest bed in the house. B) I put her to bed last & it's easy to just stay there, and fall asleep. C) G got an xBox 360 for xmas & plays it every night while I put the girls to bed. When I go downstairs he say's he'll be done "in a minute" but I don't feel like wasting my time doing something that I feel is the greatest time waster ever: WATCHING SOMEONE ELSE PLAY VIDEO GAMES. It's really not DOING anything at all. It's just stupid. That and it's got to be the longest "minute" in history. Like multiply "a minute" by 180 or more. Yeah. It's like that.
Now my sleep patterns are all screwy. I sleep until 1am when G starts putzing around in the kitchen making all manner of noise doing god knows what that can't wait until daylight. Of course he has no problem going straight away to sleep. I, on the other hand, have the hardest time falling back asleep after getting 2 or 3 hours of shuteye. Grrrr. So here I sit at nearly 3am.
Whoop-di-do! I have some quiet time for myself! What I really want to do is fall asleep, damn the quiet time. I just can't bring myself to do anything productive at this hour b/c it'd most likely wake someone. Then again, probably not. Everyone else sleeps fairly soundly. I'm the only one cursed with being a light sleeper. I used to spend my sleepless nights doing homework -papers, studying, the like. Sometimes I'd like to change it up a bit & do some cleaning. Throw some Sinatra on the stereo & organize the crap out of my apartment or clean detailed things like toys or even wash & dry & fold every item of dirty laundry (you know, the usual tools of schoolwork procrastination). Now I sit here & blog.
I could knit. That's kind of quiet but for the t.v. which I feel compelled to run in the background just to empty out my DVR which is chockfull of crafty type shows. But my brain doesn't like to knit in the wee hours of the night. The next day I end up frogging everything I knit overnight b/c of some minor yet important mistake I made 20 rows back. So no.
I kind of wish I were back at school for these very wasted sleepless nights. All in good time, my dears. Or maybe it's b/c of school that I have these kinds of sleep patterns. Hmmmm. No, as I recall, I've had a difficult time sleeping most of my life. It goes back to childhood. Yeah, I remember everyone else sleeping & me being freaking wide awake quite frequently. Maybe I should try Lunesta or some other "sleep aid". Um yeah, probably not. Scrips are goooooooooood, so that would be too easy. It might work, but it also could be addicting which would be baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.
I sometimes wish I had an overnight job. But when exactly would I sleep? While the pre-schoolers run amok during the day? At least when it's a temporary insanity, I mean insomnia- I can eventually get back to some semblance of normalcy. A permament overnight job would be permanently unnormal -for everyone.
I was browsing other people's blogs. But then, that's how I ended up here. I felt guilty b/c I hadn't written anything in some time. I HAD to blog or risk being the lame-don't update often-boring type blogger that annoys me. Or maybe it's my competitive side wakening in the midst of the many, many blogs I've read tonight. That compulsive "hey! I can write too! I can write better than that!" little thought in my subconscious. Friggin' ego, anyway.
I am getting sleepy sitting here typing. But I know the schtick: I'll go upstairs to sleep & be wide awake again as soon as I lay down. To top it off, Mad has Sunday Morning School at 9am. (that's CCD in other parts of the country or at least in other decades)(now it sounds so "Protestant" & I feel I must elucidate the matter)(how I love $.25 words!)(I must be tired to let that confession slip)(and there is no "cent" key on the keyboard. Where was it exactly on a typewriter & when did it become so obsolete that it's no longer necessary to have it's own key?? And what replaced it on the key?)(is it the little squiggly line above Spanish n's that I can't for the life of me think of the correct name? That seems to me to have been "unnecessary" in the era of typewriters.) Anyway, I need to be bright eyed & bushy tailed in a few short hours. Get all the kiddos ready for mass, be presentable myself. And then work at 2. Then home again for the same awesome make dinner-kids to bed-fall asleep-wake at 1am routine. See you all tomorrow? Same bat time, same bat channel.
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